happiness

what is it? 

Have i ever attained it?

Or did I lose it along the way. Yes, I've made bad choices that I've regretted. 

But whether I regret or not, it all narrows down, to just me, feeling happy.

People once said, the way you feel reflects on how people treat you.

I can say, most of the time, I feel happy with myself, the least I could feel is contented with what I have. 

However, why is it that only with that one particular person, I despise myself so much? 

It's like I feel as if there's this whole new demon inside of me waiting to just explode. Feelings of anger, hatred, bad temper-ness just overwhelms me.

Why?

I really don't know how to change that. 

Do I change my own self, or do I just walk away from that person who makes me feel like that?

Till then,

You aimed right through my heart, just like a bullseye waiting for you to just pull the trigger.

p.s Destroyed.