the sagittarius in me speaks

I forgot when was the last time I actually enjoyed life without any limitations and boundaries.

I was told I need to change, to improve myself in the society, be a little bit smarter and wiser.

But instead of changing myself, why can't I just change this idiotic judgemental society?

Anything I wear, everything I do, I have to actually think three times about the consequence and be more cautious

So if I change, am I pleasing myself or just the society? 

I don't find any pleasure in denying my true self to begin with.

You may wonder why am I not trying to speak up for myself and my own life.

I did, I tried, but some people are not so accomodating then you expect them to be.

What I am is what people want me to be.

It's definitely not how I would want to pursue my life.

Till then,

I forgot what it's like to be free.

p.s Getting so caught up in this that I'm too damn close to losing myself.