emerge

When we are forced to fend for themselves entirely, nothing beats the pain and fear of failure and loneliness. When darkness descends, we always see it as a weakness, consumed with self doubt and hatred. Blaming ourselves for the mistakes then dwell in utter regret, or feeling wrong for being yourself. While in remorse, I always tell myself, "This too shall pass". That seems to be the best way to tell yourself that things will ultimately be alright. The length of time it takes to mend the soul is so vague, you'll never know how long more you have to hold on. 

I am gradually becoming accustomed to bearing with what has formerly seemed to be unbearable. I feel myself slowly emerging from the downward spiral of my self-created negative thoughts. 

Somehow, it just gets easier, things get better. If only everyone can learn that not only is it okay to be confused and despair when our old way of being in this world is challenged, but we are undergoing transformation, or even, transcendence. Though the soul is shattered, it hangs on and fight to regain control. You really don't know how strong you are until you've been pushed till the edge. 

All I wanna say, is that, if I could ever teach my younger self something; it is that, it is okay to fall. Sometimes it takes a good fall to put yourself together, better, stronger and wiser.